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HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! May this year bring you all the happiness, laughter, fun, adventure, love and success you desire! Today, I present to you the very first topic for the 2014 Blogger Challenge which I am apart of [for more info about this challenge, click HERE!]. Gaby from Another Girly Blog came up with the idea for the first topic- that instead of writing a new years resolution, I would share a quote or a picture that inspires me and I think will inspire others in the New Year. So, I have chosen these two quotes which I will live by for not only the year but also my life..
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2013 for me was a challenging yet fulfilling year for me. The first half of the year wasn't easy.. It was my first year of University and I was lucky enough to have gotten into my dream course and dream uni. I was very motivated in the beginning and loved every minute of being at Uni, studying what I love. However, that all slowly changed..I lost my motivation and started to question if I was doing the right course.
I was doing 17-19 hours at school per week and more work was needed to be done after school hours. Each morning, I had to wake up at 5AM [yup, thats right] to commute to Uni. Some days I wouldn't get home till 7 or 8PM. I would then need to do my homework and not be able to go to sleep till 1 or 2 o'clock in the morning. That went on for 6 months. As you can imagine by the end of the semester, I was exhausted, sleep deprived and burn out. All I wanted to do when I got home was just to lay in my bed and do nothing. I had no motivation to do my work. It got to that point, where I wasn't able to physically and mentally go to Uni one day. My anxiety got the better of me.
With all that going on, my anxiety gotten worse. I wasn't being myself anymore. I was anti-social and I stressed a lot. Anything and every little thing will make me panic. If you are someone that suffers from anxiety, you will know that panic attacks aren't fun at all.
I guess my biggest mistake was to not seeking help and let it all bottled up and explode. I could have ask for an extension for my assignments. I could have spoke to a counselor. I could have talk to a friend about it. But I didn't. I guess a part of me was scared to show that I was hurting. My family doesn't support me doing this course at all and I didn't want to let them see that I was struggling. Yes, I made my mistake and I have learnt from it and I am better than I was 6 months ago.
I decided that it was best to take less hours at uni so I can focus on myself and take a breather. Things gotten better in second semester and I was myself again.
Long story short, I am DONE with letting anxiety get the better of me. I'm sick of not being able to try new things because my anxiety might strike. 2014 for me is about not having any regrets and doing things outside my comfort zone [ let that be joining a club at Uni or doing volunteering work] It's not going to be easy but every stepping stone of the way is an achievement. I once learnt from Bubz from Bubzbeauty on Youtube, that in life we will go through different trials or obstacles. At the end of each obstacles, there is a treasure. That treasure is the mistakes we learnt along the way and how strong we have become from it. I learnt that it's OKAY to show my vulnerable side and ask for help when I need it.
Remember, you decide every moment of everyday: who you are and what you believe in. You get a second chance every second. Live in the moment. Be happy now, not when you have passed that exam or when you finally got a boyfriend.
This year I will be going through a lot of changes with my life. I will be living on my own and getting a new job. Am I ready for it? Hell yeah! Let the journey begin!
Let's kick 2014's butt and make it our best year yet!
Let me know if you're part of the 2014 Blogger Challenge. I'd love to read your post on this topic.☺
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